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without logical or meaningful connection; disjointed; rambling:an incoherent sentence.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
The Promise
i think of things, of everything too much
i realize things and then convince myself its nonsense
i end up going in circles trying to remember you
thinking of ways to talk to you
daydreaming what our conversation would be like if we took the bus together
i remember when we were best friends
when we'd talk about everything
when we'd just sit and watch each other draw
before i walked into art i always took a breath.
i remember feeling sad when you weren't in class but there you were 10 minutes later rushing in saying sorry to Mrs.Rodriguez and smiling at me.
i remember thinking that you were just a big joke.
i remember that day when you were really sad.
i can almost picture it perfectly
your face
the way your eyes looked.
your face when you blanked out your face when you looked at me
the way you looked at prom.
thank you for trying to make the DJ play an 80's song for us
i was thinking about you since October
i should have never went to that party i should have told via no i should have listened i should have stayed home..
i really didn't want to see you with any other girl just smiling stupidly with your arm around her
i wanted to throw that fucking beer can in your face.
i have to keep reminding myself that i as the one who broke up with you.
i have to keep reminding myself that i shouldn't want to be with someone who didn't want to try to be with me.
i realize things and then convince myself its nonsense
i end up going in circles trying to remember you
thinking of ways to talk to you
daydreaming what our conversation would be like if we took the bus together
i remember when we were best friends
when we'd talk about everything
when we'd just sit and watch each other draw
before i walked into art i always took a breath.
i remember feeling sad when you weren't in class but there you were 10 minutes later rushing in saying sorry to Mrs.Rodriguez and smiling at me.
i remember thinking that you were just a big joke.
i remember that day when you were really sad.
i can almost picture it perfectly
your face
the way your eyes looked.
your face when you blanked out your face when you looked at me
the way you looked at prom.
thank you for trying to make the DJ play an 80's song for us
you know i was hoping that maybe you were thinking about me too
i was thinking about youi was thinking about you since October
i should have never went to that party i should have told via no i should have listened i should have stayed home..
i really didn't want to see you with any other girl just smiling stupidly with your arm around her
i wanted to throw that fucking beer can in your face.
i have to keep reminding myself that i as the one who broke up with you.
i have to keep reminding myself that i shouldn't want to be with someone who didn't want to try to be with me.
you Evaristo Montalvo are my eight grade crush, my senior boyfriend, my prom date, my graduation kiss, my first and also a terrible reminder.
im sorry i punched you in the face i now know how terrified you were of turning me into angel. i should have worked harder on telling you that i wasnt going to her.-I'm sorry but I'm just thinking of right to say
I know they don't sound the way i plan them to be
but if you'd wait around awhile I'll make you fall for me
I promise, I promise you I will.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Speechless
For some reason... Lady Gaga decied to stop by this sleepy town and Kat, the two Franks and I got to see her :3
In the time period of ONE day we found our tickets on ebay, franticly try to outbid all the bastards on ebay, won our tickets on ebay, had a paper jam, printed our tickets, diecied on our outfits, met up at my house found a ride last mintue and made our way to the at&t center without any dierections.
My outfit was based on the fact that I'am of "Chola Descent" so frank dressed up as a chola with me. Of course thou we twisted into a dark version of the look. Katayla was un biker chick and frank was towering on paltforms.
In the time period of ONE day we found our tickets on ebay, franticly try to outbid all the bastards on ebay, won our tickets on ebay, had a paper jam, printed our tickets, diecied on our outfits, met up at my house found a ride last mintue and made our way to the at&t center without any dierections.
My outfit was based on the fact that I'am of "Chola Descent" so frank dressed up as a chola with me. Of course thou we twisted into a dark version of the look. Katayla was un biker chick and frank was towering on paltforms.
The only dissapiontment was that speechless wasnt performed.
(look at her shoes!!)
We all refraimed from buying anything at the concert since a cup of water was 7 dollars. We danced on empty stomachs and after the show we filled our bellies with Mickey'Ds, cheese pizza, and various forms of veggie chips :)
With Gaga and Glitter residue still on us Franks rode boards and bikes the next day. Twas a Bubble Dream.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Do You Believe In Ghosts?
what do you feel when you go thourgh old pictures?
when you see
people you stopped talking to
past clothing
past hairstyles
past lovers
the belief that nothing would change what you felt then
the music you used to like
the people you used to like
once in a life time events
you, before you became you
it has it's benefits and it's painful reminders but whether it makes me want to go back to high school to toss a flag in the air or makes think that the hole in my chest never really healed, old pictures always had a pleasant feeling to them.
when you see
people you stopped talking to
past clothing
past hairstyles
past lovers
the belief that nothing would change what you felt then
the music you used to like
the people you used to like
once in a life time events
you, before you became you
it has it's benefits and it's painful reminders but whether it makes me want to go back to high school to toss a flag in the air or makes think that the hole in my chest never really healed, old pictures always had a pleasant feeling to them.
sometimes i cant believe what i've done and the people who've come into my life
it makes me excited to see what lies ahead
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