Trust Me

I'm always tempted to post the nudes I've been hoarding 

not mine of course but other people

but that's mean

(◡‿◡✿)

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I always got the feeling that no one ever grasped what i love Meli means

no one can guess how happy she makes me

no one can assume how much I need her 

Meli is my Moon

she is the light

a soft glowing light that I can go to when there is no one

I can cry and confess my most horrible secerts

she knows all the bad things that have happen

and all the bad things i've done

and I can still be a kid with her

no one will ever understand how much i love meli

my love for her will last longer than this tattoo

<3

 

Blue Eyes White Dragon

and here we go

Have you ever met someone who just on a completely different level?

I didn't really know what I expecting

honestly!

I thought he was a douchbag because he's so damm cute

then I thought he was shy because he's quite

I thought he didnt like me because his text are short

but he's always looking for a way to be near me

and we kinda just stare forever

 

 god i must sound like a broken record by now

 

Shutter Sound On

My phone doesn't have the option to take pictures without the shutter sounds

Boring Horror

I CANT BELIEVE YOU
I CANT BELIEVE MYSELF
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGAAAAAAAAAAAAH
ENDLESS ENDLESS TABLE FLIPS & FACE PALMS

AEDTSZATZRYGERSAZTGRTDJYFTDYRFGGHB

..really thou..

it's almost a relief
almost
one of those that hurt but not as much as the initial pain
i wanna laugh and scream and punch someone
but after a few moments the shaking stops
it's more irritating than painful now 
I can't believe myself more than anything
here I was thinking what we had was special
....
You are young and I am an idiot
we are idiots
 I'm sure she's a nice girl

Mystic

I feel better a lot better

I don't feel heavy my appetite is coming back

 just that general sick feeling is gone

Even if I didn't get my questions answered maybe someday I will
but right now it doesn't matter
right now I'm happy
however it is a strange feeling knowing someone I consider perfect for me is out in the world existing, living, breathing, getting tattoos
Perhaps we jumped the gun and we weren't soupse to happen so quickly
maybe we went soupse to happen at all
I have been feeling a bit mystical lately
the urges to get my cards read with Meli have been increasing >n>
 I hope this feeling last
I think what I'm feeling is hope

Merry Happy

I deleted my Facebook
I'm not too sure if that was a coward move of me or not 
but i feel a little better
   nights are difficult
all i can really do is breath and think positive
I forget just how helpful my mother is in these situations
so thanks ma

I call an end to my grieving period

this is easier said then done however

I really want to be there for him..

and I will for as long as he lets me

I'm not gonna listen to sad songs 

and if i cry I'll make it brief

I have to remind myself that I'm stronger than I think

and I don't want to linger on what makes me sad

good luck to myself then 

i know that if we're meant to happen then we'll find each other again and i will keep that in mind as well

Vocal Cords

I've never paid too much attention to voices
but when your relationship is based on pixels and phone calls..
I can't help but listen more carefully
It's not just the words but the tone 
I don't think I ever felt like he has lied to me

His voice just seem so sincere