Personal

my heart hurts like i got dumped again
i cant even believe a thing like this could happen
i guess it takes a real tragady to open my eyes to things
its difficult and sureal
so sureal i forget that its happening
this morning i saw a tear in my life
this morning i saw things i had only seen once before
this morning i laid in my bed shakin and screaming
i cried to god and asked not to let this happen
this is personal and its happening right now
right now everything is so heavy
nothing makes sense

Faster Than A Speeding Bullet

if it hadnt been for the pysical text that are in my phone i wouldnt have beilived it happen
and as soon as it came it left
i guess a few more months cant hurt me..
ill be good as new

Smart Phone Not So Smart Person

i guess now everyone wants to make me a twitter
but thats not gonna happen im not about that life
this phone thou is insane
this post is being written by my phone technology is insane
and this isnt even anything crazy fancy
i feel like im gonna get dumber and even more boring now that everything is at my finger tips

Pink-Lights West-Side

Making Faces

I got a interview at Sephora
I realize when you start lying up front it's easier to keep on lying
Thankfully I'm a horrible liar and plan to air out my 2 white lies
because it's eating me up inside ~(;_;~)
I hate people who pride themselves in lying 
It's incredibly scary the thought of actual job
one where I don't know anyone
where I gotta fill out paper work and sheet
Hopefully my 2nd interview goes
hopefully this actually happens
I need to buy new shoes and clothes
like actual new shoes/clothes
the ones that haven't been worn before

~(;_;~)

Un-Employed

bumming around is a understatement

Is it foolish of me to think once I get a actual paying job everything will get better? 

what am I doing wrong?

I don't want to dye my hair 

I'm still young

why is it that you always have to know someone to work somewhere

I don't know anyone

I'm a hermit

 

Tumblr

oh tumblr you life-sucker you
I was in love with you 
then I was obbsessed with you 
now I forgot what I did before I discovered you 
the majority of time it is just staring at pictures and scrolling
but now i'm starting to notice something
I notice that there's hundred of other girls who are just like me
and even more girls who are so so much smarter than me
who have beliefs and morals and help me believe that at least half of the world is getting better
I've learned 6 things I shouldn't do before going to be
20 things I should know while i'm 20
I've learned apple cider helps colored hair look brighter
and to make pastel colors quickly all you need is conditioner
I've learned that fat isn't an insult 
niether is slut whore or cunt
I've learned that the amount of body hair a woman has doesn't make her any less of a lady
Tumblr is both soul-sucking and educational
 
 

June Bugz y Fireworks

We Both Have Better Things to Do

I had a dream about you last night

I woke up at 9 confused and wondering if I should call you

because they say if you dream about someone it means they were thinking about you before they went to sleep

In my dream I couldn't sleep so I went to your bed and put on your beanie and hid my face

I knew you would be mad if you caught me

you saw me but you didn't want to look at me so you called your mom to get me out of your room 

right before I left I thought I didn't come all this way for nothing

so I turned to you and asked you why

you said you didn't trust me

I feel like this is as close I'll get to talking to you 

Boring Horror

I CANT BELIEVE YOU
I CANT BELIEVE MYSELF
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGAAAAAAAAAAAAH
ENDLESS ENDLESS TABLE FLIPS & FACE PALMS

AEDTSZATZRYGERSAZTGRTDJYFTDYRFGGHB

..really thou..

it's almost a relief
almost
one of those that hurt but not as much as the initial pain
i wanna laugh and scream and punch someone
but after a few moments the shaking stops
it's more irritating than painful now 
I can't believe myself more than anything
here I was thinking what we had was special
....
You are young and I am an idiot
we are idiots
 I'm sure she's a nice girl